A Confused Patriot....

A reaction to Arundhati Roy’s statements:

Dear blogger...

(to the one who is concerned..)

I have one doubt, Roy made a passing reference to kashmiri pandits..just to sound "judicious" or i guess "secular"!
But, there's no doubt, your article speaks what "billions of Indians" feel everyday! Because its not just "writers commune" that has proprietary rights for "thinking and expressing"!
Who would take pride in a chronic pain, disturbing wound in their heart! Ask the Kashmiris, be it the pandits or the muslims, or the sufis (which, Ms.Roy, conveniently forgot!) They want peaceful life like any other state! Have you asked them what is their conceptualisation of "azadi"? Its not just demilitarisation! It is need for economic upliftment, employment, education, health, child welfare, women empowerment!
Its well said "when in Rome do as Romans do"! Has this rubbed on over Roy's free-spirited thinking process, as she confines herself only to the "hurriyat's Rome"?
She illustrated her statements quoting the agony and pain of stone-pelters, widows (Are u talking about widows of militants' or the soldiers'?), Shopian rape victims, the bodies of soldiers decaying in Cuddalore! A small question, what about the soldiers buried in graveyards of Kashmir, on the Siachen, at Kargil, in Anantnag, Budgam, Sopore; where they fight day-in day-out to save the villagers from bullets (often recorded as "misfired shots")! Is it a happy, brave act to stand for 36-48 hours continuously on toes with eyes wide open "just" to take care of 200 people with no idea whether you would be hit by bullets from across the border or some maniac, less-human stone-pelter while on duty! As a writer, you would "express" that's what soldiers are recruited for! Isn't it?
So given that, writers have the freedom to express, its their right! Let's assume an "Azad Kashmir". But then, please illustrate, what do they ("freedom fighters") as well as you mean by "expression", "justice", "representation", "freedom", which needs an urgent clarification! A nation that puts in its political, military, economic, social and cultural value and ethic in the abode of its "rightful citizens" giving them not just freedom to express but (liberally) act out on what they speak, hardly leaves anything to pity but citizens like you spitting on its image with less care for those Kashmiris having ray of hope in their nation's efforts towards putting Kashmir on the global map for some right reasons! Let me illustrate, the efforts of state tourism dept. to preserve Kashmir's cultural heritage (giving the historic evidences of it being a city built in "India" and preserved by "India", which is now a threatened world heritage site, thanks to the local leaders of azad kashmir and the stone-pelting young aspiring founders of wishful "Azad Kashmir"! (For reference, http://www.kashmirfirst.com/articles/other/070613_threatened_heritage.htm)

Another refernce of a writer, scholar (I hope Ms. Roy doesn't object for calling this person a writer!) then I dare to provide this book as a reference for Billions of Indians, that include "millions of Kashmiris" and the agonised stione-pelters and respected Hurriyat leaders as well: please get your facts right and respect other's "freedom of expression" as well! (http://books.google.co.in/books?id=It1LePnN2LsC&pg=PA1&lpg=PA1&dq=Kashmiri+heritage+in+the+global+world&source=bl&ots=qvieAzvI6-&sig=RU5txZwrIo3OANjayq4G7NvFYuI&hl=en&ei=ConJTJCgGoagvgPo1tgR&sa=X&oi=book_result&ct=result&resnum=6&ved=0CEAQ6AEwBQ#v=onepage&q=Kashmiri%20heritage%20in%20the%20global%20world&f=false)

Now a small reflection on this to my brethren:

We need a "global" mediator to speak for our bilateral security problems, we need a commission to justify the chapters in history, to compartmentalize history into black-n-white, we need an arundhati roy to vaccilate or woes, we need lalu prasad yadavs to teach us civic sense, a rahul gandhi to smile charismatically for encouraging youth to join politics, we need tainted parliamentarians to teach us constitutional-ism and anti-legacy politics, we need IITs IIMs alone to prove Indian "talent", we need to fight for patents, be it turmeric or jatropha, we need IPCC to take care of our climate change crisis, we need foreign research organisations to promote "research-oriented" think tank initiatives in our own country...well i need to stop here! I believe, writers are not stray dogs, they are loyal to their words! be it fiction or non-fiction! If this be so for the sake of azadi and justice, Ms.Roy, Indians deserve this?
Being a communist, what's your take on the Hurriyat's efforts for setting up a political representation? If you have to express your dissent through hateful speeches and sympathize stone-pelters...then communist would pity you more! The reason is "communism" comes with a classless society and not forceful Azadi! Next time you meet Mr.Gilani, do ask him about the economic disparity in "his" state and his ideological stance which propagates entrepreneurship by Hurriyat! A mere INR 300 or so does not fill the stomach of stone-pelters (with reference to: 1)http://www.defence.pk/forums/kashmir-war/63753-stone-pelting-becomes-lucrative-business-kashmir-valley.html
2)A mixed bag of opinions on the following link:
http://www.thehindu.com/opinion/lead/article550058.ece
with this comment:
"You write about "teenagers armed only with rocks"... etc, without asking where the rocks came from. Actually, you have ignored the reports that the "rocks" were supplied in trucks and carts. It means that the riots and "stone-pelting" were not spontaneous, but ORGANIZED by anti-India elements. Did you also not see the TV news and viceos showing that pro-Pak elements had actually hired the so-called rioters, paying them something like Rs.300 per hour. The chief trouble maker asked his assistant that at least 15 persons should get killed and become "shahids". It was all on tape.
In the light of he above, I earnestly request you to get a more balanced understanding of the position of the "security forces", and present a balanced analysis in your essays. It would appear that the J&K police is hand in glove with the Pak-backed mischief makers.
from: Bandit Moorkhjee
Posted on: Aug 4, 2010 at 12:54 IST

liberating your soul!

It all began with the movie, “The Hours”. The lives of three women in three different time periods, undergoing mood disorders seemed as if ‘I’ was somewhere hidden in the emotions of those characters. My personality being coloured by their characteristics and ways of thinking and feeling!

I had no idea that I could get so involved in this movie that I would be in total disconnect with my present for many “hours”. I write a lot…forget the world around when I write….my characters in the short stories live, eat, drink, sleep and dream with me! The stories I write advance day-in and day-out with me, with the dialogues constantly wriggling in my mind. I thought I was really becoming a paranoid! Almost!

Writing takes you to an entirely new world….It makes you feel as if everything is possible, flexible, conceivable and free spirited! It gives you the freedom, the liberty to make things work, sound and transform as you want and the way you want them to proceed! It gives you a feeling of control over yourself and over ‘that’ something which you create!

It is a good exercise for your mind to pour out your creativity. Yet, at times, it may get on to you, where it becomes an obsession, an addiction and you start living in two worlds. In the extreme cases, like Virginia Woolf, as pictured in the movie, is so engrossed in sketching her characters of the novel she is writing that she forgets the real life she lives in! It happens to me often. I tend to discard what goes on in the real world, think of abandoning it, denying it. I am more comfortable in my stories. They give me pleasure and foremost, a control over my ownself. I make my own decisions, decide my own activities or tasks, take up those activities that I like the most to do, instead of what I am suppose to do!

It sounds too exaggerating to compare myself, with a great writer. But, it’s the character in the movie I am speaking of! I am sure most of the bloggers would agree with me, that writing gives you a relief! Not a kind of escapism, but a relief to live one’s life in those moments…. It is so liberating for your soul!!!

Phoenix!

Here's something I call inspiring:

I had been to Institute of Psychological Health, i.e. IPH's award ceremony known as "Dwij Puraskar". "Dwij" refers to 'reborn'. IPH confers this award to those who have overcome their disorder or mental disability after accepting it, fighting it and also propagating importance of mental health!

When a person falls ill, what does he/she do? Go to the doctor, get treated and take medication till one is back to normal! How do you relate this to mental health? Here in lies the difference in point of view towards mentally ill people! People call them names, start teasing, demeaning, and stigmatizing them instead of taking them into confidence and understanding their vulnerability! A question you must rethink on: Do you call a physically ill person a defunct? Then, how justified is it to call a mentally ill person, mad?

The awardees were chosen from a list of 700 patients from all over Maharashtra. There were two categories: the patients (shubharthi) and the caretakers (shubhankar), 3 winners in each category. They received a trophy from eminent people from various fields like art, law, journalism, social work and governance.

The awardees were interviewed elaborately about their disorder, when did they realize that they were ill, how did they feel about it, who supported them, what was their response to treatment and what do they feel after receiving this award. It was a hair-raising experience to listen to them and brought tears in my eyes! They inspire! Yes, they are the everyday heroes!

The Shubharthis:

A young 23 year old girl, suffering from OCD, working as a chef in the hotel kitchen had a tough time facing the fact and fighting it, as she did not receive expected support from her parents. She was helped by her friends staying in India and abroad. They still support her. She has underwent the whole trauma by herself, taking it in her stride, going to the doctor on her own and taking the treatment till now. She did not stop there! She helps others who face this disorder by propagating appropriate information and encouraging them to seek a counselors help.

A 25 year old boy suffering from bi-polar disorder is today a teacher in the Dharavi slum area, teaching children in the slums, all the subjects! He has overcome his disorder and explained his condition in great detail specifying all the embarrassing moments in his life, right from the stage! He showed great courage and confidence! He had a strong will power to bring change in his life and a positive attitude in others’. He calls his disorder “Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gum”.

A middle-aged women, suffering from schizophrenia, now works as a school teacher in “aadhaar”, an NGO. She has overcome a great many difficulties. Her husband disowned her and left her to fetch for herself. She sought medical treatment from a doctor, instead of any superstitious “babaism”. She is still undergoing treatment. She went to Rajasthan recently, to encourage such patients to seek treatment without any fear in their mind!

Then, the “Shubhankars”:

There was a couple, who had 35 year old son who is schizophrenic and had run away from the house for a period of 15 days. They thought that they had lost their son now! But some person at the other end of the city, found him and as he had given them a proper phone number could call up his parents. It was a very touching experience because if their 35 year old son had not given the exact phone number, they would not be able to find him at all! It is really very difficult to digest the fact of losing one’s son!

The last story is of a man who has taken care of his wife as a true soulmate! His wife is a schizophrenic and undergoing treatment even now. He has never accused anyone for her disorder, even though it is an arranged marriage. I am making this statement because of the generalization of incidents of disowning one’s wife, in their caste as the man himself specified! He was advised by his family members to take her to a maulvi or baba that could cure her “bhoot badha” i.e. to get rid of a ghost residing in her! However, he never listened to them as he did not believe in it and instead took her to a doctor and a counselor. He started medication and also took care of her, at times feeding her as well. One day she ran away from the house at night. He realized it only after a few hours and then he crazily went searching for her to such an extreme thinking if she had jumped of the river bridge! Eventually, he found her in the far lying unconscious. He started weeping and took her in his arms repeating umpteen times that how could he have lived his life if she had killed her or done something disastrous! When asked how he felt when he received the award…he replied with great humility that “I have done nothing great to receive this award! I was just doing my duty as a husband towards my wife! I love her and will take care of her my whole life! Also, I urge all the people here, as I tell my villagers, that mental disorder can be treated, if you extend help to the patient with love and care, treat the patient as a human being and understand the person’s vulnerability.”

It taught me a lot, the humility, courteousness, sustainability, patience and most of all courage to fight back anything in life. Despite great and severe odds, these people rose to such a pinnacle and are living their lives ahead with the same spirit. Then, instead of crying over petty matters in my life I need to look at these motivational figures every time I face a problem in my life! I am sure it will help me grow better and stronger, mentally and emotionally!