Its been a long time that I touched this keyboard to type a few unwanted things occupying space in my mind! Dragging me through the gruesome schedules of the day, I wondered within my own self, knowing very little where I was heading for! Its amazing to wander about in a place in search of novelty. However, I dread to accept it that I was treading towards nowhere. I would have loved the process only if I knew what it was!

The agenda henceforth was to find out what I have, what I want and where am I? I found solace among the friend circle I chose and closely guarded for myself. Yet, I wasn't at peace with myself. Somewhere deep in my heart, in my soul I was wounded, disheartened and in my own eyes defeated to the expectations of my upgrading ambition!

I didn't give up, though! I sustained. I lived for the moment. I let things happen. I become a mute spectator which wasn't favouring any growth in my persona or my cognitive abilities!

Long lost friends joined in to encourage. Some new acquaintances flashed new sprouting relationships that might bear a sweet fruit of confidence, faith and trust. However, this time I was a little apprehensive to put the first step. It was a challenge, not so big, but yet it was one! I loved challenges. I was a sportsperson, so am I now! But, the relationships that counter me each day with their dynamism, seem no more sporty or healthy. They appear more as tactics and alliance policies! It is always the question as to whether a person is useful to me in the long-run or not that tears my heart into pieces! I no longer continue to be a normal person, but start acting out against myself as someone shrewd and diplomatic.

No wonder I succeed. But this is not the area where I want to succeed, is it? This question hogs my mind, my conscience each day! I sleep due to exhaustion and not satisfaction!

I long for the day of SATISFACTION!!!